Have you ever had a day when one moment can change your whole outlook? I had that kind of a day today. I woke up feeling pretty good. How can you not be happy dressing up for Halloween. Got Tristan and Ethan off to seminary and Brian and I headed in a bit later. I got to work and everything changed. One conversation made me question who I am and what I am doing. I don't know if I was on the "verge of sadness" (that is what I call it when I can look into the deep abyss that I don't want to enter again), but I have had a hard time shaking my sadness all day. It is like it is a blanket covering me. I hate days like this. Nothing gets accomplished. I feel like I am walking around in a fog. Once I am in this mood, it seems like I attract other conversations or experiences that cause me to question. Am I a good mom? Maybe I can't do this job. Maybe my prayers weren't answered. I am not good enough to work with the beautiful young women of my ward. I am fat, I am ugly, I am stupid. My house is a mess...a multitude of negative thoughts fill my head.
I am sure that my emotions have been affected by the weather and all of the sadness and devastation of the past few days. But it has been a sad day none-the-less.
Lucky for me, I was on lds.org and found a mormon ad that reminded me that I AM a daughter of God! I am of eternal worth. I am blessed. I am a MOM, a daughter, a sister, a friend...nothing else matters. I don't care what people think of me. I do care what God thinks of me...and I know that He loves me. Tonight, that is enough.
Watch this link. It reminded me of who I am.
Daughters of God
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